In general, I don't usually enjoy blogging. I once had a livejournal which died for my lack of logging in and posting anything, and somewhere on blogger there is a blog of mine as well. It's been several months since I posted there.
But this is the blog for my wedding and I do feel like I should add something to this blog and have been struggling for a small while to figure out what.
Over the last few months, we've gone together to a couple of weddings in her family and while I considered saying something about them, unless it were to be about how it has helped us solidify things, it wouldn't really be fit for the blog. And their weddings have really been about them -- as it should be -- and not about us figuring ours out. And while we did look at a few things and say "Whew, that will work for us too," or "Who will be our Brooke for this kind of issue?" I decided against a post of this. (Audrey's brother's long-time girlfriend, was her "Man Friday," until her maid of honor came to town. Invariably, our answer was "Julie will be our Brooke.")
I also considered trying to do one of Kimberly's posts. "We found someone who we like for our Cake. Not have a photographer is making us very nervous." I'm not as good at it and in general, I must admit, since I started working a few months ago, I have been doing my best to keep track, but I have lost track of where she is with flowers (Dried thistle sounds neat for the buttonholes, and as long as she's happy with the flowers, I don't care beyond that) and have only a vague idea on the dress, the card box, and all the thousands of things she is trying to keep me up to date with. I could talk about how we went to the rental place for my suit yesterday. It's a bit of a blur, but I still say that men's clothes make more sense than women's. She agrees.
In the end, I think the best thing to put here is for me to quickly note why, even as the day gets into double digits, I'm not nervous.Yes, we need to get the invite list finalized with a few people, print them out, send them, and so forth.
Yes, we need to decide on a photographer, sign him or her into a contract and soon while we still have availability.
Yes, the ketubah text is still being bantered about in Hebrew with my brother, and the actual painting isn't yet started.
Yes, the chuppah is just a frame, is stored in my mother's guest room, my mother has been given creative control (not bad, but we have been doing a lot of fighting for creative control and so it does make me nervous and that's what this list of unfinished details is about), and currently has never be tested with my tallis.
Yes, we have music plans for the wedding music, but have large gaps to fill, actual playlists to organize, cords and plugs yet to find, and have no plans yet for the announcer voice we need.
There are so many more thing to do, but I feel very sure at this point that anything we do forget is unimportant and anything we have to do will get done.
Call it blunt optimism but I'm certain in even 50 days we can take care of the playlist. In the next 20 we'll have a photographer. We can have the invites ready in time to send out even if we don't have the lists approved in the next 20 days.I'm just seeing it all as stuff we can do and not worrying about it.
I hope that makes sense.